Done This Week

I just need there to be some aspect of my life, a single region of my existence, in which I can see the light at the end of the tunnel. Just one thing that does not appear to be an eternal slog forward for no reason and no reward.

I am so brutally tired and so utterly unable to recharge. I can’t see any point in the future when this will not be the case. And I can’t figure out anything to do about it.

We’re planting two separate pumpkin patches this year, one of which will (hopefully) be just a big, circular tumble of plants. One of my truest moments of joy was standing in the middle of our first pumpkin patch a few years ago, up to my hips in leaves. All I want is to do that again. And if, by some happy, eldritch chance, that sea of squash vines should swallow me entirely and drag me into some underworld, so much the better.

Lewisia: 3 new pieces written

Day job: 43 hours, in which my counterpart got knocked out of the tournament, but he made me a team tshirt all the same

Gardening: succulent club, garden club post, planted this year’s corn and pumpkin patch #1

Reading: The Lightning Thief by Rick Riordan (very much behind the times but wanted to try the series out, regrettably didn’t do much for me but might be worth continuing at some point)

Listening: Stolen Season by S. J. Tucker (need to listen to it enough to actually learn the songs, since Sooj’s stuff is infinitely singable, but loving the bluesy sound already)

Other: unloaded one batch of hay

The Friday Five

I've been wanting to start doing DW-based memes and whatnot.

Am I doing Friday things on a Friday? ...let's not get ahead of ourselves.

1) Is summer a break for you, or is it busier?

Generally, there's no particular difference. There are slightly more events that I attend, I suppose, but my social calendar is never exactly packed. In a normal year, my work is about the same, though this year is very slow and we're just hoping things pick up in the second half of the year. I do have to spend more time outside, watering the plants, though that's not quite what I would consider a hardship.

2) What's next for your travel plans?

I'm trying to work out some concrete plans to go up to the Bay Area to see E. If I get really brave about driving around there, I might try to scout out where I'll be getting surgery (someday...) just to set eyes on it.

3) What have you spontaneously done lately?

Well, I spontaneously bought tickets to a drag show in June. That's half spontaneous, at least, which is pretty good for me.

4) What's your favorite way to unwind after a long day?

*hollow laughter* If I figure that out, I'll let you know. Uh, I like to play a bit of Animal Crossing and read for a little while before bed when I can manage it.

5) What's in your pockets?

The carrying case for my earbuds, as I am listening to back episodes of Kevin and Ursula Eat Cheap. Sometimes, when things feel particularly bleak, I just want to pretend I'm sitting around the table with them while they eat ridiculous things. It's a great antidote to feelings of loneliness and despair.