scrubjayspeaks: Jin from Yu Yu Hakusho looking annoyed (YYH)
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Challenge 13: In your own space, share a favorite memory about fandom: the first time you got into fandom, the last time a fanwork touched your heart, wild times with fellow fans (whether on-line or off-line), a lovely comment you’ve received or have left for someone.

I went to my first convention in 2003, which was Anime Expo L.A. I went almost every year for a decade. I no longer live so near to it and so haven't been since I moved in 2014. I would truly love to go back. I'm not even that actively engaged in anime fandom anymore, but it always felt like home all the same. My second year there, 2004, I cosplayed for the first time.

An anime character with short, curly hair, fox ears and tail, and a colorful outfit, kneeling on the floor and looking worried while holding a microphone.

(screencap via YuYuCaps)

I went as Koto, a fox youkai and the cheerfully bloodthirsty MC of the Dark Tournament in Yu Yu Hakusho. It was almost a closet cosplay, using a lot of premade clothing items. But I made the little neckline-and-tie thing and the mysteriously-unattached-to-anything coattails. And the ears and tail, of course. I still have the tail, too, oddly enough. I wasn't there to compete or anything, just to have a bit of fun as an obsessive fan of the series. When I went by the Funimation booth, though, they gave my a shiny Koto from the card game in appreciation.

I cosplayed four more times at that con--Rinku from YYH, B.T. and Macha from the .hack games and series, and No-Face from Spirited Away. They got more elaborate over the years and more thoroughly handmade. No-Face got a lot of requests for hugs, and Macha (who looks like this) was the most impressive overall. But nothing will ever quite compare to the fannish glee of cosplaying for the first time, dressed up as someone I loved from something that was the most thrilling thing I had in my head back then.
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Challenge #3: Guess Who's Coming to Dinner: Tell us who, from one of your fandoms, would you most want to have dinner with (or tea, or a random afternoon visit), And why?

Immediate thought was one of the Fellowship hobbits. Probably Pippin, because I love him and he's a good mix of fun and thoughtful by the end. Sam would be a delightful choice as well. I doubt we would spend much time sitting about, though, when we could go out into the garden and talk plants instead. However, I realized that I would love to be invited to dinner by a hobbit; I am frankly terrified by the prospect of needing to play host to one myself.

Speaking of gardening, though, I would quite enjoy a friendly visit and afternoon in the garden with Kurama of Yu Yu Hakusho. And if, you know, he happened to slip me a few seeds of the more manageable demon plants from the Makai, well! I wouldn't say no. Actually, in that vein, Reverend Mord and Pastor Drom from Hidden Almanac would be absolutely delightful to spend a day with. Provided I obtained sufficient alcohol to keep Drom amused. Given their propensity for misadventure, though, I suspect their visit would be hazardous for my safety and sanity.

Really, I doubt I'm up to the task of playing host to any of these people. High standards and tendencies toward epic adventure are sort of outside my scope. You know who can come visit any time and who will absolutely find the menu at my house acceptable? Lucky the Pizza Dog from the Hawkeye comics. Lucky can totally come over for snacks and scritches.

I focused on fictional characters, because that's a lot more palatable and more plausible than real humans (and less likely to bite me in the ass X years down the line when it comes out they're a terrible person). But I couldn't help thinking--I would really like to sit down with Guillermo del Toro and talk about monsters. That seems like it would be nice.
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Over the weekend, I finally started watching Yu Yu Hakusho again. I had loaded the files up onto the new iPad for maximum convenience--truly, the increased storage space and faster transmission time with iTunes have already paid for themselves--but I hadn't started watching yet. I turned it on for a bit while I did some cleaning, though, and that got me rolling to just watch in general.

Keep in mind, this is literally my favorite show of all time. So my reluctance to watch it felt...weird. I've never entirely understood my resistance to rewatching or rereading old favorites when it crops up. Oh, sure, watching new, unfamiliar things is obviously more of a hurdle if I'm feeling low on cope. But old favorites? What's that about?

Well, I think I figured it out, at least this time around. Even though I know the show by heart--perhaps because of that--it is capable of eliciting strong emotions. I.e. I will cry at the drop of a hat every time the characters do anything noble or charming or lovably foolish. And that's a lot of emotion to have to cope with In These Trying Times (tm).

Which explains why I've been bingeing YouTube videos for months now but can't watch movies or shows. However much I enjoy Let's Play channels or cooking videos or comedy clips, I am relatively unlike to cry over them. The strongest emotion I'm going to experience is either uncontrolled mirth or mild frustration. Mostly I'm going to be quietly amused or soothed. These videos are, if anything, a damper for emotion.

Watching something capable of eliciting a deeper response has the sensation of pins and needles as feeling returns to a numb limb. Like I've been wearing a full-body tourniquet for the last nine months. Probably accurate. Probably normal. It also doesn't surprise me, then, that writing has been more difficult than normal. Storytelling doesn't come easy if I've got my entire emotional range crammed into a shoebox, buried at the back of my mental attic.
scrubjayspeaks: photo of a toddler holding an orange tabby cat (baby Joyce)
One week into NaClYoHo and this salty pirate is buckling all their swashes! Do I know what that means? No. Assume it's a good thing. I have not slept much, and I am very wired. This post about the past week feeling like an ADHDx2 speedrun feels VERY ACCURATE.

Point is! Cleaning report!

The bedroom end table has been cleaned off, polished, and set to rights again. Two stacks of books on it and the jewelry box have been relocated. All the tchotchkes have been dusted. The tote in front of it has had many stacks of books and video game cartridge cases removed from on top of it, the paperwork inside has been winnowed and organized, and the books inside have been reduced. The box itself now lives in the corner of the room, which has been newly cleaned out.

The tall rack, which came from a clothing store originally, has mostly just been dusted. It's where I display a lot of nerdy doodads, like enamel pins and badges from conventions I've attended. It also has several windchimes and metalwork art figures, and one area is devoted to mementos of past pets. So nothing really left. I did finally attach a few more pins that had still been in bags. I'm starting to run out of room on the pirate windsock streamers I use for that. Thus, a set of Eevee fanart pins have been attached along the edge of one curtain instead. Very cute. I just stood there chanting "happy~!" for a while after arranging them.

The craft supplies in the corner have merely been moved around--they won't get relocated until I tackle the storage bench in the living room, which is a ways off. The costume elements have been hung up, though, and the handle of the ax that lives there has been polished. (I have so much weaponry in my room, I sometimes forget just how much it looks like a disheveled armory in here.)

The spare blankets have either been added to the bed (so chilly lately!) or stashed away.

Thus is the south-west quadrant defeated!

Moving to the north-east quadrant, I have also overcome the dresser, which I expected to take way more time than it did. The whole top was cleared,dusted--jesusfuck, the soot sprites had taken over up there--polished and partially rearranged. The photo frames and ceramic figures are all back in their normal places. The fringe lamp has been slightly repositioned. Some miscellaneous papers have been tossed out. I polished the brass dish, which had become a junk drawer.

The biggest change, though, is that the sand babies have been taken out of their customary drawstring bag home and put on display in the brass dish. The sand babies are little fabric figures filled with sand, which I bought for many years from a particular booth at the county fair where I used to live. They're mostly lizards, turtles, and snakes, though there's also one frog and a couple of dragons. And all but four of them are representations of characters from Yu Yu Hakusho (the others are Harry Potter and Gundam Wing). Back when I was in high school, I decided to start picking out sand babies with fabric patterns that seemed fitting for the characters. I started with the main team, but I just kept adding more as the years went on, bringing in allies, rivals, and enemies of note. The collection is 35 pieces strong now. They've always brought me a lot of joy, but I've mostly kept them in that bag to keep them safe. Now they're all nicely displayed in the huge brass bowl where I can see them every day.

The corner next to the dresser has also been dusted and vacuumed. The old cat fountain, unplugged for many years, has been taken out to storage.

I've listened to 3.5 episodes of King Falls AM, January 1-19 of the 2018 season of Hidden Almanac, and several of the Halloween horror episodes of Game Grumps. I spent about five and a half hours across the week on cleaning. My hands smell of wood polish. I will by dying of sneezing as well.

Happy~!
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Challenge #9: In your own space, promote at least one canon that you adore (old, new, forever fandom).

Yu Yu Hakusho (sometimes translated as or appended with Ghost Files or Poltergeist Report, which is a hilariously misleading attempt to convey the supernatural aspects of this world): technically classified as a martial arts anime, but not so you could tell by looking at the crazy, more of an action/adventure with supernatural creatures, team as family, and all the hurt/comfort you can stand.

Read more... )
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Day 2

Rec at least three fanworks that you didn’t create. Leave a comment in this post saying you did it. Include a link to your post if you feel comfortable doing so.


I had originally planned to do a nostalgia rec set, but that rather came apart on me. So here: have an assortment of things I have liked with commentary.

Apocalyptic, by Grable424 & djcprod (fanvid, multifandom): the apocalypse should probably not make me feel so pumped up, but this one does it. By the time it gets to the line of "we go forward," I feel like I have rediscovered a reason to live. (Even "Live. Breathe. Suffer." feels like a motivational moto.) I have a deep, badly scarred-up place in my heart for anything that can be described as "teeth-gritted determination." I hum the song to myself at work sometimes, thinking of this, when the bullshit level is particularly elevated and I need to keep my head above it.

Lights for the Emperor, by tend (fic, Yu Yu Hakusho, Kurama/Hiei): I need to reread this, but I'm sort of saving it for some misty spring day. That feels like the right sort of time to get cozy with this story again. (I mention all this to excuse my inability to give any kind of detailed synopsis.) I found this when doing an "I wonder if anything interesting is happening in my ur-fandom" search. And it was particularly lovely, with its nuance and its quiet and its difficulties, as a reintroduction as an adult to something I loved as a teen. Also, the world building aspect of Kurama performing traditions intended to cast out evil spirits--traditions that actually activate against him--was brilliant.

The last bit does have two fic recs, but it's actually a...concept that I'm recommending. The stories OK Computer by Speranza and Transfigurations by Resonant both have a DVD commentary version, here and here respectively. These are both solid nostalgia stories for me, this time more from the college years, I think. They both do fascinating things with world building, and story arcs, and identity, and the passage of time. I love even more the commentary versions, which is something I don't seem to see done anymore?

For OK Computer, the commentary is some great literary analysis, including some really interesting commentary on queerness in media. For Transfigurations, you have an author and a beta in conversation about the writing process, which--you have no idea how endlessly fascinating that is to me. When I reread either story, I prefer to read the commentary version. What one loses in immersion is, I find, made up for in complexity of engagement.

As I said, I don't really see this happening any more (the lj challenge community for it has long since died), but maybe I'm in the wrong fandoms for it these days? If anyone knows of individual fic or fandoms where this is being done, I would totally be willing to leap into a new fandom for this. Hell, even rec me old stuff with commentary versions that you find particularly satisfying--I won't turn my nose up at it.

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